Below are the most recent 6 friends' journal entries.

Tuesday, December 22nd, 2009
starrynight920	2:28p	SO school is FINALLY over for the semester! Im enjoying the boredom of break. One more semester and ill have my BSN so excited. Itll be nice to bring in a paycheck every month. It will be the biggest checks ive ever hand too so thatll be extra special. I need to mentally prepare myself for the 19 credit hours ill be taking next semester tho, its going to be so exhausting. Finished my femera + Ovidrel this cycle and am just waiting now. Ive pretty much counted myself out this cycle and am gearing up for IUI next cycle. If not pregnancy with the femera + Ovidrel + IUI then well move on to injectables + IUI.  Hoepfully something works, im slowly becoming cynical. I dont know how ill feel in a couple years but my husband and I decided to just go with injectables and IUI for now and not do IVF. We just dont have the money. Maybe in a couple years if we still have empty arms well feel differently but for now thats our cutoff point. Secretly I would do the IVF but the DH is kinda freaking out about money, but I think if it were IVF or adoption he would opt for the IVF. Only time will tell. I swear when I finally get a BFP ill have to take 20 tests to really believe it after all this. The holidays are coming and im going to deal with the onslaught of ttc questions, that i so detest. I swear I should just put out a memo that we have a whole team of experts working on giving us a baby so well let you know if it works. Not you ask us until it works.  *sigh* (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 19th, 2009
maybe_we_can	3:32a	03:37 pm 9/24/08 Leave a comment maybe_we_can[private post] (no subject) I have so much uneasiness right now. Like something really bad is about to happen, like a DWI, or death, and I hate this because I have such good intuition when I get these weird feelings I really worry theyre going to happen. creepy. just read about 20 entries back. life is so strange. things are different than last winter for sure, but they are still so very fucked up in their own right. and it sucks because.. no one really is happy, huh? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 17th, 2009
sleepsomemore	8:04p	1. Do you find it weird that some people know the exact time in which they were born? no 2. How many states have you been to? 6-9 3. Did you feel like crying today? no 4. Isn't it pointless when your teacher is absent and your substitute sucks? yeah!!!!!! 5. Does it make you sad when you see someone crying? no 6. Do you like where you work? If you don't work, where do you want your first job to be? I don't work for noww 7. What do you do if someone steps on your shoe? pull it away 8. Do you think teenagers these days purposely get pregnant? yeah lol 9. How do you normally do your hair? straighten it lol 10. What's the next movie you'll go see? no idea? 11. Do holey socks disgust you? ????? 12. Which of your friends last got on your nerves? I don't know 13. What method of birth control do you use? pills 14. Have you ever had sex without a condom? no 15. Do you think Bump-itz really bump up your hair? never tried them 16. Does it confuse you when you go into Walmarts with a different layouts? nah 17. Are any good shows on tonight? roseanne 18. What's the big deal about the number 69? sex..lol 19. Do you know anyone that's adopted? yes 20. What size bra do you wear? 21. Are your pubes curly? You expect me to tell you? 22. On a scale of 1-10, describe the last oral sex you received. - 23. Isn't it awkward how guys will let just about anyone give them head, yet girls are embarrassed? I guess? 24. Have any homework tonight? not in school 25. Do you want a huge Jacuzzi tub and separate shower? nah -c-- Where is your mother? dead Where is your father? should be dead Do you like to swim? I guess.....yeahhhhhhh Do you need to return anyone’s phone call? nope Where were you born? buffalo ny Where do you keep your birth certificate? idk where it is How many days until your birthday? 7 monthssss What is the closest orange object to you? idk Have you sneezed in the past hour? no How many books are in your room? several What did you last eat? soup Who is your favorite teacher of all time? misss fran, she quit thouuu Name one of your goals for this year? get my shit backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk What is the biggest trouble you have ever been in? been to jail Did you cry because Michael Jackson died? nope Look to your left. What's there? door Ever pop someone else's pimple? mmmhm How long does it take you to fall asleep? hourrrr Are you scared about the end of the world? nah Is there a TV in the room you are in? yes What are you looking forward to? to sleeeeeeeeeeep What comes to your mind when I say red? my hairrrrrr=[ i miss ittt What other language do you want to be fluent in? spanishh Do you crack your neck often? no Do you usually hold your pee for a long time? no Is it possible to lick your elbow? mhm Worst feeling in the world? idk What's your current favorite commercial? none Name something you think is pointless? some people Favorite fast food restaurant? mcdonalds Have you ever been in a fist fight? yeah Would you consider yourself a pyro? no Did you have a weird dream last night? no Do you wish at 11:11? sometimesss Do surveys really cure boredom? just for a moment (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
negro_soup	3:01p	Well everythings all good with Kt and I now. She told me her side of the story and its completely different from what I was originally told. Its like people just want to ruin mine and her friendship. She was pretty much defending me in a way. People are ignorant and shouldnt fuck with me or my damn best friend if they know whats good for them. Post from mobile portal m.livejournal.com (Comment on this)
Monday, December 14th, 2009
negro_soup	2:23p	I am pretty goddamn pissed off. So I heard from 3 people that my supposed to be "best friend" likes to talk shit about me in front of everyone. That is just fucking GREAT! Just what I needed. I have like only 2 fucking friends, and the one that Ive thought of the best one for the past 5 years has to go and do shit like that. I am so mad. Not even mad, like hurt and betrayed. And then I asked her about it and she said that she didnt think she was talking shit about me, but what everyones told me I definitely consider talking shit. And its not fucking cool. I am just so sick of people here. Like all I do for these people are listen to their problems that I couldnt give two shits about and clean up their messes. But now Im done, I really am. Im sick of giving giving giving, and people taking taking taking from me and not giving anything back. And Im not just making this up in my head. Kim sees it too. This friendship that Ive had with this girl has been pretty damn on sided for a long time. And now that this has happened Im just done. I dont need shitty people that are just going to bring me down in my life anymore. And honestly I think she'd be fine without me. I dont know what to do. I want to die. Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 10th, 2009
negro_soup	6:00p	Oh my god. I am going to be soo sore tomorrow! So Kim and I got snowed in last night. School was canceled thank god. So earlier we walked to the store and not even 10 minutes being gone, on the way home our footprints were already gone. Then later we tired to do some shoveling and then Kim's mom came and picked us up to buy us groceries and we were only gone about 20 minutes and all the shoveling we did was covered again in snow. Then Kim's step dad came over and plowed as much as he could of the driveway before he would hit Kim's car. So then Kim tried backing out of the driveway and then John her step-dad was like "stop stop stop" and he wanted to back it out. But then when he tried he got the car stuck. So Kim and I had to friggen push the car out. Eventually we finally pushed it out, but then it got stuck again at the bottom of the driveway. So we had to push it AGAIN! But now its finally out. I am so impressed and proud of myself. I never thought that little weak Alicia would be able to push out a damn car. But I am going to be so unbelievably sore tomorrow. I definitely pulled some shit in my arms. Well I need to smoke a bowl, relax, and take a shower with my baby now. Current Mood: impressed (Comment on this)